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Tuesday, 06 January 2009

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And Winter Came
By Enya
And Winter Came
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Winter Blues.

Can I just say, fuck winter. Royally. I hate this particular season, so cold and dark and boring. I'm more of a summer person. Anyways, new Scrubs starts tonight and I'm pumped! I'm glad their on ABC now, it just so happens to be my favorite TV station. Today was a day like every other, boring as hell. Got to sleep late though so it was pretty cool, went to Best Buy and bought Disaster Movie and Pineapple Express, two terrific movies, so go watch them! Still don't wanna go back to school, but I do, it's weird. I can't wait to graduate and then go to grad school so I can move outa CT. I'm thinking Florida, California or New York. Most likely California. We'll see though. Ehh I gotta kill time tonight so I'll probably have a marathon of The Office or The Golden Girls. Whatta life lol! Hopefully tomorrow I'll actually do something productive!
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Circus
By Britney Spears
Quicksand
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Sinking Like Quicksand.

Not too fond of winter break. When it finally comes down to it, we're free for about two months and then I don't wanna go back to school, but I have too, because I'm spending $15,000 a semester plus books. Anyways, I have no life, working two jobs and going to school will do that to you. Sometimes I feel like going to rehab it's so bad. I used to have a life, and it was fun, but now I feel like an old person, I stay home all the time and watch game shows, so fucking sad I know. Wanna know how much my bosses love me? Friday's I work 3-11, then Saturday I work 7-1 then 4-9 and Sunday I work 6-12, then 1-6. It blows so much, and it's been like this for a year and a half straight. It sucks so bad. I'd love to just go out like a normal teenager for one night and just do whatever and not care about anything. I feel like I'm sinking like quicksand. And because of this no life situation, my love life is dunzo. I'd have a better chance of finding the Loch Ness Monster in my bath tub then actually persuing a relationship, I have no time to commit. Don't get me wrong I have 'friends', well. . .acquaintences, I have three real friends in life and sometimes I think that's all I need, but I want more, I always want more, that's the spoiled side of me. I've been spoiled by everyone since the day I was born and I'm so used to it, I like it, but then again I don't. I get what I want, when I want, how I want it and where I want it. Nice life huh? Not really. It gets old. I just don't know what to do with myself, I'm going to school as a full-time student to become rich and successful and happy with what I wanna do, but I need people in my life to be happy, I love people. But what more can I do? My family is always there and I seem to be growing to them more and more each day, I mean when I'm not working or at school, I'm always home so I'm kinda used to them by now. I think I try to hard to get people to like me, but I feel like if I don't they won't even notice me and if I do, then they will notice me, but there might be a chance I can turn them off. I'm very sarcastic, people compare me to Sophia Petrillo from The Golden Girls because that's how I am. I love The Golden Girls and to me, that's such an honor.
I don't know what else to do anymore. It's sad. For realsies, but it's whatever, maybe something will change, and if it does, hopefully it's soon!